I don't have any plans yet. I want everything to be over in Belarus as soon as possible, then I will come back immediately. I have a grandmother there who has no other relatives. She has experienced almost everything in her life: the death of her daughter, and the death of her alcoholic husband, who made a domestic mess. She and I have always quarreled, just to death, and about politics too, but now we have found mutual understanding. And it's especially hard for me to think about my grandmother right now. Because I have almost no friends left in Belarus, and those who are left don't have the resources to visit her in the same psychological state.
My greatest fear is that we will never see my grandmother again. HShe is a person with whom we have found mutual understanding over so many years of life, she is my greatest treasure.
I think when I go back to Belarus, my biggest wish will be just to help her.
I hope my work will help me, maybe to move around a bit, to walk, to socialize, I don't know, at least something. Although, if I could, I wouldn't work. I don't know how to work for five days in this condition. I have to apply for international protection now - I haven't done that. I could get money, but even that is not motivating.
We contacted Artem a month and a half after the first conversation and asked about his condition:
- It only got worse. I was helped to find a psychiatrist, they wrote a prescription for antidepressants, now the question is to bring the medicine from Ukraine.
I hope they will allow me to start living a little.